A misty state of mind

Makes me feel that all is possible, that all worlds are half-shadow and half-solid, that all emotions are multi-faceted, shining like sapphires.

I see in the past the paths that have brought me here and the ghosts of roads not taken. I look at the ground and see the vines that are strewn all over the way. This road, and every road I have walked whether deliberately or just as the result of the passage of time, have changed me.

It is a wonder that we can connect at all, human beings walking separate paths and brimming with destiny.

The irony...

I traveled to a foreign country alone to begin a new chapter of life.

I have been riding on competitive academic scholarships for the last three years.

As a university freshman, I am applying for a research grant that's usually given to sophomores and juniors.

I dance in public spaces, I sing without embarrassment, I make lame jokes.

I speak up in class. I voice my opinions when I think they are intelligent. I voice them even when they're not.

I participate in clubs, and when there isn't one that caters to a need, I form one.

I can do so many things I never thought I was capable of.


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But I can't muster the courage to ask you out.